How to burn the bridge that made out of steel..?

Dear all, quite interesting that this blog been read by you guys..and I think it's cool and I appreciate your thoughts and comments..

It makes me feel obliged to writes again..I know in public eyes, life as a hotelier not quite interesting and sometimes boring..we did eight hours and we left..like anyone else..but the truth is a hotelier is much like an actor in the theater play..Lafite Restaurant taught me everything that I need to know in my early career..thanks to my sifu Huza Radzi, who gave me a bittersweet lessons..

As an actor in the hotel..one need to look for appearances..looks..and attitudes..someone need to be a supporting actor to make the play well rehearsed..and let the crowds or the paying guests satisfied ..and the main actor like me should spice up a little bit of drama..magical and character..to overcome the unsatisfaction crowds..

Everyday is a different crowd..and just like in a theater..we can't get away with our nerves and fears..and yes, it always happen and we had that moments but we shall not prolonged it for another day..or the play will getting hated and bored..and how about the romance?..the romance in our play not exactly like in the theater..yes we can show a little bit passions and loves..but in a friendly kind of ways..

And why all of this acting got to do with the title?

Don't get confused with the title..and yes it's nothing to do with the title..but this is my way to get your attention, right?

I know in this past few articles..it shown that I was so down with love.. heart broken..depressed.. and angered..and I think a lot about toughcookie written to my comments the other day and it wake me up, actually..and I guess I was wrongly decided to end without consulting and meet her..it was a rush choice without checking the consequences on her part..so I made up my mind and set for an evening dinner yesterday.. after nine days of hates and despairs we met again and chats..

It turns out that she was confused with her life and she want out..she want to go single-non-attached and be friend with everyone she met aka freedom..so far I was listening to her side of story..of how ungrateful I was towards her..of how her tolerance toward me was not really been appreciated..of how my smssed that other night hurts her feeling and she was devastated and cried because of my hated words..

And what's my reactions?..what's my defenses?..what's my story to get away from all of this?..


to be continue..

A new chapter..but same old one..

The lifestyle of hoteliers were sometimes quite amazing..during working hours and after the shifts were totally different things..

Whenever at the premises of any hotel..hoteliers had a boundaries..a guidelines to follow and obey..standard of procedures to maintain the performances..and we live by rules and regulations..and to neglect any of this was like you threw the sand inside your rice cooker..that will be disaster..but surely everybody knew that..it is written..

What is so amazing about our lifestyle after works?..well to start with..one must have a connection..someone that had a influence in every details..a connection doesn't necessary need some money..most of the time..a connection need a good friendship..remember, this is all business..and when this oppurtunities arised.. hotelliers need to be friendly and charmed to everyone..and that were not only at the hotel to be precised but also at other places as well..but of course everybody know that..

The lifestyle after works is individual needs..perhaps for the old bachelor and now single and available guy like myself..I spent my quality time after works mostly on clubs and bars with my usual entourages ..it is important to stick with a small crew of two or three friends..you don't wanna look like a troublemakers or worse..as a hotellier..you will definitely meet other hotelliers as well..

Last week my good friend of mine said that "we are like God at Centro"..yeah right!..after I got him the corkage prize of RM100 for a liter of Chivas..he owed me for that..and this two hot ladies on our sides..we dances, we drinks, we smokes all night long..like the kings of a night..

What a night..a night that was the beginning of the end of an affair..how can I forget that moments..even the eight miss calls couldn't get me off the club..until it closed..damn..and I still can managed to walk alone to the coffee shop..watched my team Manchester United put three goals past Fulham's goalkeeper..and that was not even the end of the glory night..or the morning for whoever start working early..

I can miss that lifestyle after works..of course..
I'm sober for six day now..not a record yet..and I intend to start reading the book that she gave me on my birthday..at least it will help to motivate me..

Because I knew it then and I knew it now..that no girl wanna love a drunken master ..well that's her statement actually..anyway like I care..perhaps the recent break off is my ace of spade..my eight balls..my call to change after all..

The United States of America's new President, Barack Obama..who now famous quote is "we can change"..and to be a half American myself..that's another story..this is a hint and sign to start a new chapter..

We will see about that..

...to be continue

Ode to my chosen one..

And what did I told you..
What did I told you..

Yeah..I been warned..and yet I still get caught in the act..I admits this time it look like no answer and solution..and I was judged and punished without my corcern..

It's like I don't have any say about this relationship and my words was not worth any cents..

Why can't she heard my side of story..of how my lacks of the not-so-user-friendly-yet PDA had jeopardise my ability to answered her eight miss calls..

of how my being with friends could also been the factor..it was not like I done it on purpose..

and how my apologized was been replaced with hated and angered..and what's about her..she think she was a Cindarella..

Come to my senses..I know the time will come..but I don't expect it to happen in this near time..the time when I felt bad and sad to bid farewell to my precious nephews who'd leaving to India for three years..the time when I really need a friend to talk to..and who was selfish now?

Arguing with you was such a waste of time..and if you really want this to end..then so long..farewell to you as well..and this time like you warned me before..is for real..and I can live with or without you..

Once in this life..I thought I got the chosen one..but lucky me..now I can go hunting again..

Confession..

I need to clear the air about one thing..my status..It's seem that 'in relationship' status took a lot on my time with someone..I have to be in touch..connected..and act like a couple..it's a bit strange and unusual for me..It's been a while since I have a real girlfriend..if you know what I mean..

A real girlfriend..the one who can live with you in the happy and sorrow time..the one who can give a full attention and respect your freedom..the one who can ignore the past and carry on with present life..the one who can give a support and encourage you to be better man..the one who can lie to be honest..the one who can keep the secret between each other..

The one who is a lovely, a beautiful, a charming and a princess in heart and soul..

What a definition..the fact is I found that in someone already..but the truth is I afraid to fail the relationship again..I been warned in the past that you have to be open and wise..yeah, I guess I am more wiser now..more wiser to know the fact that nothing actually happen until you pop the question.."Do you want to marry me?''

Until it happen..that I know it depends and need my full focus and attention..I will keep and prolong this relationship until the sign is there..or until I get dump!

And I just been warned..

How to get from where you are to where you want to be.....

It seem weird this day..someone plant this idea in my head..and suddenly it become stuck inside my mind....and I try to google who is the person that had this idea..and coincidently..the message was a book title by the same name....and I get this book as a present for my birthday..is it coincident now..or I'd been tag?

I'm not have a time to sit down and read the book yet..it's been a while since I finished my last reading..a novel by Mario Puzo's The Godfather..that was back in 2004..Oh..God..almost five years..most of the time I only read the book half way..and sometime I not read at all..just bought it for the fun of pleasure..

But this time is different..since the word became a motivation enough for me..thanks for the gift..I will read it..and try to comment about it on my next post..

I just hope the book not dusty when I finished it..

All about a letter c...with the Capital..

A few words begin with a letter C that soon becoming a burden in my hands...

Commitment....depends on time, energy and space..

I need to give a full commitment to a person I love..that is why I scare to commit.. I don't have enough time for her..as a hotellier, eight hours on shift never been enough..I still have to do extra hours that sad to say..never counted as overtime..and after long hours work..I can't have a full energy to meet her..I will become jaged and tired..and to erased that I want to have some space for myself..this is when 'happy hours' was important to energizes my spirit..and it already damaged my pocket..

Committed....on what you love to do..

Working in hospitality industry..I already commited to my jobs, work place, team members and management..so how is it possible to make more on my love life..since it will divide my full attention on already hectic schedule?..

Career....on long term planning..

After more than four years in the same outlet..it's time to move on..and when that happen..
I need to be ready..I already in the Wine Team now..the job that required me more reading, learning and understood wine to do the talking and upselling..and for the long term plan..becoming a wine sommelier will be a great prospect for my future..that's my goal in two years time.. and to have someone that share my dream will be great..but am I willing to sacrify all that just because she can't ?

C.I.N.T.A....like an X.P.D.C. once popular kindergarden song..

C..Cinta ku yang satu..
I..Impian yang nyata..
N..Nikmat yang berbeda..
T..Tanpa pengertian..
A..Antara kau-aku..

Lost in translation?
My love one..
the dream is real..
the satisfaction was different..
without explanation..
between you and me..

to be continue..

Living a dream..

Dear all..

I know it's hard to begin the story without the script..it's a main subject..and it's important to have a good story to begin the new year..
But my story so far began with a sad note..that I lost my SonyEricsson K810I..in the new year morning..I just used it for about 8 months and suddenly it feels like my whole life turn upside down....It feel like the world was collapsed..and I been struck by lightning and no one knew nothing about it..totally chaos..and the worst part..my brother also lost his Nokia N95 on the same week...and he really love that phone..he won it on the contest that brought him and Ana to Rome for 8 days..Poor Khalil..Good Luck on AF7 tomorrow!
It's back with a reality check..that without a phone you can still enjoy life..alone!

Still Or Sparkling?: Wishlist...

Still Or Sparkling?: Wishlist...

Wishlist...

New year 2009 will be coming in few more days..and I really hope..this 2009 will be a year that bring me more joys and happiness..
Lets hope that all the sadness and sorrow in 2008 will not be repeat again next year..at least for me..

What I wish for in 2009 will be..
a) better financial in life..in term of check and balance of my account..
b) have a steady relationship..although I will not bet for it!
c) possess a driving license..and buy a car..it's about time already!
d) own a Visa or Mastercard..
e) limit the entertainment hours..that I can't promise but I will try!
f) becoming a wine sommelier..it's still on hold!
g) travel to Hong Kong and Russia..start collecting dollars or euros..
h) learning more about IT and website..buy a laptop..
i) more collection on DVD...that's not cheap..but still safe money from going to TGV..
j) going to Metallica concert!...that's more like a dream..
if ever they will come to this part of the world....


I know some of this wish list depend directly to myself..but that's a challenge..and I hope one of these days it will happen and I will prove that it will never too late..

Marry? That will come sooner rather than later..because I really don't know if there is someone waiting for me..but I can't reject it if the time is right..I can only pray that one day..my bride will come knocking at my door..hahaha..

2008..thanks for all the good memories..
2009..wishing for all the good things becoming a reality..

Good bye 2008..Adios
Welcome 2009..Salute

All the broken promises...

Whatever happen tomorrow..I will not working as a server anymore..
Enough is enough..they can't treat me like a ball..
Passed me around whenever they like..

I've been promised to move to the new outlet after X'mas day..
I was happy and excited and eagerly looking forward for it..
They can't shattered my dream just because they don't have enough personnel to work with..
All the talking become nothing anymore..they can't simply put a shift for me after my name was not even on the list after X'mas day..

As far as I'm concern..my soul was not belong in Sudu anymore..I gave all my four years already and I appreciate all the cooperation from all my coleagues and managers during my period as a team member..and I can't thank enough for all the sacrifies and hard work from
all my team members during my year as a team leader..truth is I will miss you guys a lot..

But let bygone be bygone....whatever happen in Sudu should stay in Sudu..and that the bottom line..allow me to move peacefully without hassle and problem..let me create a new chapter in my career and whenever if possible, I will still can help Sudu in a different ways..

To the person who responsible for making a decision..just let me go..this last few months already unsettled my life and future..I really need this transfer..I know it is a hard decision to make..but flashback..I was not asked for it..it was offered and I'm glad and honour..It was like an amateur footballer been offered to play for a higher league team..May all the wish come true..

I will not change my mind..and that's an ultimatum..someday I will be a sommelier..and I will do whatever it take to make this happen..starting from today..
God Bless.

Feel like a deja vu, again..

Tonight is an annual dinner at the hotel...the night that gathered all personnel in every department to chill out, hang out and party..

Last year I won the main lucky draw prize..6 days and 5 nights to Sydney, Australia..

This time around I will not attend the party..since I been chosen to work on closing shift..Too bad, they will miss my antics..

So to every hoteliers out there, this is your night..enjoy it..
keep the alcohol volume low!

And hopefully the magic works wonder for me, twice!

All's well that ends well and other comedies....

After all the Shakespeare's drama about the new chapter of my life, today I will wearing a new uniform and begin my career as a wine agent..and hopefully one day I'll becoming a Wine Sommelier..

Becoming this is perhaps a wish comes true..No one can deny me anymore..After all the talk, meeting with the director, and several months delayed and nothing to be confirmed,
I'll be joining the wine team unofficially, because I'll only start on 26th December..but I still be working in Sudu and it is my absolute pleasure to show people what's my capable off.

So wish me all the luck and.. I will be continue to deliver..

Salute!

Ola...Happy Hours!

The good thing becoming a hotelier is that you can be friend with stranger as it was your job as required...and what a possibly the no risk place to find a stranger was in the fun places like the pubs, bars, gigs or sometimes on the road..
They are from all over the world..I met a lady who was from Costa Rica the other night...she's a good friend to chat with..and she knew about football that I can consider very rare among women in Malaysia..She's a sports fan as well..and it was a good thing to start a conversation..
And the hours become more fun when the live footie shown on screen...and the beers keep flowing...What the way to enjoy your happy hours...
Johanna Vargas Chinchilla..Thanks for the chat...Keep it real!
Ola!

Confession of a drama king

This month going to end soon..Three days left actually..And even it's not ending yet..but still it's full of sadness, sorrow, pressure, hatred, back stabbing, double cross and whatever elements that look negative and spoil my mood of working..

Hotelier is an actor on his borrowed platform..The stage is the restaurant that provide all the prob and the customer is the audience..That mean you have to become a drama king to perform a soap opera everyday..

Are all this actors and actresses were been in screened before?..Yes, but few of them are only playing a supporting roles that just complete the quota..We still need a key roles to run the show and make the drama interesting..And currently we short on that area..Someone that provide jokes, happiness, caring, a hero type of guy..

I'm not a hero type..probably a bad actor, I not even can stand straight in the briefing..But I'm concern about what will happen when this soap opera lost perhaps one of the most beloved and hatred actor when he don't have anymore inspiration to be part of the drama? Are the sets will be falling apart? And who's the fault of all this chaos? Perhaps too many screenwriters spoil the drama and become a laughing stock among the audiences..What happen to the future actors that probably dying to get a role to play?..What's the director action on this..Cut!


To be continue..

Grow as a champion..Move it, move it..

This evening was a great day to chill out with my nephews at Suria's TGV. They kinda like to hang out here since they first knew how to go to KLCC by LRT. It's exhausted but it was fun watching them playing, running, jumping, they not scared of anything, especially the young and beautiful Farzana. She's not even 2 years old yet but she can count to ten better than her second brother, Aidil.
What the joyous moment they having..like flying without wings.

Click!

Yesterday, for the first time after long, long years..I took some guts to take pictures around Jalan Pinang and Jalan P.Ramlee. The view and scenery was perfect for this new hobby of mine..Luckily for me..I have Awie and Arab followed me..and Awie especially, really into this photography..I think he got a talent that need to be polish a little bit..Never too late to learn a new things..Even our greatest leader, Tun Dr. Mahathir started a blog that inspired millions of Malaysian to join forces..Such an inspiration for y-generation..

Cantonese Egg Noodle.

After long period of working in the closing shift, this November bring a new chapter of my life. I am assigned to work in the morning for whole month. It's not like I never had to to work in morning before, it's just a work anyway. You have to set the alarm as early as 5am, sleep early, forget about early morning football match, clubbing, drinking etc. You have to wake up fresh from hangover of last night partying, or else you will seen as sleepy hollow.
My part in the morning need me to be cheerful, smiley face, and the most important part, fresh awake. I'm not a breakfast type of guy, I prefer a cigarette to start. And a cup of low fat latte.
Breakfast at this month especially on working days was so busy. We have lots of group coming. The good part is you can see how they dressed up for breakfast. Young attractive ladies perhaps the one that most probably been served well.
"would you like to start with a cup of coffee or tea?" " and a freshly squish orange juice as well?" been repeatedly asked hundreds of time by the angels aka customer service girls for in-house guests who walk in. Coffee or tea must been served within 2 minutes or in some cases 3 minutes for a latte or cappuccino. All in the fast moves. You can't walk like a model, you have to turn over the table as quick as you can for other guest who arrived. 300 covers everyday. Busy? It's normal. They used a term of tsunami, mean when they come one short at one time and leaving exactly the same. Then second tsunami came the table was like eighty percent ready, this time the back runner should be fast on getting the coffee cup ready, the buffet checked clean, the cutlery enough, everything in order.
The funny part of breakfast is when group of Chinese tourist came, they like their breakfast very well. They enjoy it too much they can seat for an hour. For the European or American they have their breakfast fast. A cup of coffee, some toast with choice of egg style, poach egg, over easy, sunny side up, scramble, soft boiled, hard boiled, and omelet.
A breakfast is finished at 10.30am and it will be continue the day after. And some short period of time, I was running from all of this busy things for a puff-puff after finish my latte and a bowl of egg noodle.

Aidilfitri come again!

In conjuction with Aidilfitri, I would like to wish all my viewers, Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf zahir dan Batin. My blog will resume its story starting today. Lots of thing happen during Ramadhan and mostly all the time work took my time off. But I'm glad everyone celebrate Raya with happiness eventhough Ana lost her phone while watching movie, KAMI. Too sad because she love the phone so much. She won it on Nokia Challenge last year and that phone brought her to Rome, Italy for holiday. Not her 'rezeki'. If only she just stick to her plan buy a book at KLCC rather than continue with Kami.
I feel bad as well. The N95 was the first expensive model that ever land in our home. And loads of pics and vids on her phone.
Anyway, the memory remains.and nothing else matters. If only the day that ndver come.

Open letter to S.A.F.

This morning, I witness the defeat of Man U at Monte Carlo against Zenit St. Petersburg of Russia. Totally outplayed. It's a reality check for Man U to look for an alternative for Cristiano Ronaldo. Last season saw the champion depend too much on No. 7 for his goal scoring and play making. The truth is Man U need a well proven striker who can deliver goals when it needed most. Now it is time to buy someone that can score 20 goals per season before the transfer dateline closed on 1st September.
Buy Berbatov now!

Saving? I need an accountant!

Is it hard to spend money? Sometime it so easy to blow our money away.. Buy some cute shirts, buy some cute pants, spend drinks with friends..clubbing, open bottles..etc..
But the main question is how to spend money in good way?
I really can't answer that..for me, money is like water, easy come and easy goes..
But one of this day, I will need to save my money..I intend to travel to Europe next year..If I can save like a thousand per month for six month..I can be at Moscow around April or May next year..If I can save less that that..five hundreds for example, maybe I can go visit my dearest friend at Hong Kong next year..But anyhow, I need to start saving..I'm planning to travel next year and I really hope my friends will understand that I can't spend like before..
I need someone who can guide me, be my accountant..